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Listen up everyone. I'm Cordelia Chase, and I'm a new warden around here. You don't know of me yet, but don't worry, you will with time. I'm not the sort of person you forget.

So what's exactly the deal with this place? Things I need to know? Are there places to shop? Cute guys too oogle? I need the dish. This place is certainly way different than Los Angeles was, that's for sure.

Also, to my inmate, I hope you don't think I'm someone you can push around, buddy. Because I'm not. I'm sure whoever you are, I've dealt with bigger and badder stuff in the past, so save it for someone who cares. You can either let me help me, or I can make you let me.

It's your choice.

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I'm not a brat, so you can stop calling me it now. Because being a brat implies that I don't deserve things, which thank you very much I do. And shockingly enough, I'm a tiny bit thankful sometimes, but that's usually only for the really big things. Just because I'm not sugarcoating my feelings on you and this whole thing does not make me a brat. Can you guess what it does make me?

Edited 2010-07-13 06:58 (UTC)

Yes. Because I was exactly like you when I was younger. I put myself on a pedestal and thought I deserved everything, but let me tell you, the fall kind of sucks, and it'll happen to you because it happens to everyone eventually.

You're not special. You're just another spoiled kid with a self imposed idea of importance.

I already had the fall happen once and like a big strong girl, which obviously, despite your attempts at saying otherwise, you're not, I picked myself back up and put myself right back on my pedestal.

So, I'm still special and you're just a bitter woman who wishes you had done what I did when you had your fall.

Feel better, though, at least I haven't threatened to kill you like I think some of the inmates might.

I'm not bitter. I'm actually quite proud of myself. I don't regret a single thing I've done or the person I've become, so if you think you're going to convince me that I'm a lesser person, you're not.

Because here's the thing, there's a reason why you're an inmate and I'm not. And like it or not, you're stuck with me and my ways, you're going to have to get used to it. And if you're such a big girl, you're going to need more than some pretty words to convince me of it.

Whether or not you believe me is irrelevant, because I know what I'm saying is true, because you wouldn't be saying half of these things if you weren't bitter.

So, my rampant dislike for your type clued you into my inmate status, aw look, she's learning. And I'm not stuck with your ways, after all, I don't have a warden until they assign me one and I'm sure as hell hoping it's not you. However, I can convince you with more than just some pretty words, just not right now, because unlike you, I've been affected by the flood, and I'm not exactly keen on leaving my room, so you'll have to wait for that.

I'm not. Maybe I was at some point in my life, but that was before I started doing actually rewarding work. I've dedicated my life to helping people, to making the world a better place. And you might not think that matters, but it does.

Actually, you mentioning being an inmate is what clued me in. Or do you just have trouble remembering what you say?

Even if I had been affected by the flood, I wouldn't be afraid to leave my room. Stranger things have happened in my life.

Making the world a better place? That's rich. How long do you think it was better before something came and ruined your work? A week, maybe two? Better place is a relative term.

Ah ah ah. I never explicitly said I was an inmate. I implied it with the comment that I haven't threatened to kill you, which shows amazingly enough, that you have a brain and you're capable of using it to assume things.

Some of us despise who we've turned into and therefore, we don't want to leave our rooms. It's a matter being scared. It's a matter of keeping up appearances.

I know no one ruined it because there are still people there fighting for what we believed in. Don't talk down to me, I've seen things in my lifetime you wouldn't believe.

Sure, it's just about appearances. Because any of the rest of us know why anyone turned into the person they did. If anything, you're just making it sound like shame.

I can talk down to you if I want. It's not like you can muzzle me just because I'm saying something you don't like. In any case, while there are still people fighting, I bet it'll be ruined.

...For some of us it is. Or it's revolting. Or it brings up things we'd rather not have to explain to the general barge public.

But that's where you're wrong. I'm actually here to ensure it doesn't get ruined.

Who says you'd have to explain it? You don't owe anyone an explanation for anything unless you think you do.

Oh so noble of you, get yourself stuck here instead of on the front lines, I'm sure they all love you for that.

...Switching your sex is something that bares explaining, at least, you have to tell people why this person is important to you. Which is not something I ever want to do.

I couldn't stay there, I wasn't allowed to. I wouldn't have left if I had a choice. They know I never would have left ~~Angel~~them willingly if I had a choice.

Actually, you don't have to explain it. I know if I had been effected, I'm not sure I would go around telling everyone why.

Oh this is precious. You were banned from helping. That's just- This is just proving my point over and over again. You're bitter and you're here so you can help. This is just precious.

Wardens tend to want to know why inmates have suddenly turned into people. Or, you know, your friends want to, or just people are just curious.

I wasn't banned, I was chosen to ascend to a higher plane. I was needed elsewhere. Elsewhere ended up being here.

Yes, and explanations are nice, I'm just saying technically, you don't have to give them. So why let that shame control you?

You ascended to a higher plane? It still is funny, Cordelia.

It's not-you know what, I don't have to justify myself to you. When this happens to you, see how you react, okay. Now if you excuse me, I think I will leave you be for the time being, because I have to do...something other than listen to you lecture me. See you around.

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